Cupcakes

My mantra this week, my final week of work, is “leaving gracefully”. Leaving, departing, saying my goodbyes. Gracefully, with truth, kindness, consideration and understanding. That’s been my goal.
I’ve always been uncomfortable at office parties, something about everyone milling around in the same room, having to strike-up conversations. I’m so introverted that I’d much rather hide in my office then chat in the hallway.
With gentle nudging from Claire Ann and others around the office I decided to have a less structured party. The party is today.
Last night I made 46 Cinnamon-Scented Devi’s Food Cupcakes with almond flavored cream cheese frosting.
All boxed up, I brought them into work this morning, set-up a table and napkins and prepared myself for guests. I sent an e-mail to everyone in the building, saying I was leaving and had brought a treat in as my good-bye.
People have been stopping in all morning, wishing me good luck, saying I’ll be missed. It’s been a nice slow stream of individuals, not nearly as overwhelming as having them all come at once.
I’ve never left a job before, not a real job. Ofcourse, I’ve never had a “real” job before this one and I’ve been here for close to eight years. I’m so happy I’m leaving, so relieved to close the doors and move on. By leaving gracefully I can honestly feel like I’ve done well here, I’ve made a difference and most importantly I’ve excelled at my job.
Change is exciting, difficult, scary and thrilling. Saying goodbye is one of the more difficult parts. I think the cupcakes are helping make the goodbyes easier.